After is Always Harder

its always worse right after i see him. i mean, i always miss him, but i get by when i haven't seen him for awhile, but after being with him for 24 hours... and being reminded how amazing he is and how i feel when im with him, it makes it all the more harder when i leave him again. ive been on the verge of tears since leaving.l i want him here. now. all the time. i love him. i really do. i want to fast forward like 3 years. ill be further through school. only a year left. caleb will be back from his mish. we'll be able to be together and not have to worry about impending separations and such. i want to be with him all the time. i miss him so much. i feel like part of me is gone. i feel kind of.. empty. i mean, i know who i am. im my own person without him. but hes still a part of me. im terrified of not being with him. i have that burning in my throat and an emptiness in my stomach.