Finals Week.

weellllllll.
its finals week. gross, gross and more gross.
i have FIVE finals. FIVE. my worst one is going to be psychology. thankfully that is my first one... tomorrow at 11am. and then. i have english and american heritage. my next two hardest. they're on wednesday. thursday is bom and friday is french, which should both be quite easy. ive been studying my guts out for psych. and im still quite sure i am going to do horrible. oh well. im sure i will get over it, and quickly.
other than that.
caleb has been up here. its been completely wonderful. i love it when that constant ache is gone. i just feel so much.. lighter. and happier. and just better. i dont think he fully understands how much i love him. actually, im not sure anyone does. i dont think i can fully understand. its amazing.
i cannot wait for two weeks of no work and no school. how great. hopefully this week will go by quickly.
ive been feeling a lot better. not so.... "emo" as collin might put it. no. i am not emo and never will be, but i just like how collin uses that word. anyhow. but i am still sometimes lonely. and.. a couple days ago i got so mad at myself. i expect so much out of people. i have very high expectations, especially of those that i love. and when they dont meet those expectations, i get extremely disappointed. but then, i have to realize that its just not in some peoples nature to do that sort of thing. its not them, and they wouldnt be themselves if they did that. so then i get mad at myself for expecting those things/becoming disappointed.
agh. i am such a confusing person. but only to myself. to others, i think (and hope), i am less confusing. and quite simple. not complex. but. im not sure. oh well.
that was quite a bit longer than i had originally planned. oh well. its good to get those kinds of things out.
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i love him. :)